I hate you.

They treat me like shit they treat me like i'm a fucking mistake in the back of their minds and they want to get rid of me. I of course want to come crawling back to comfort and safety but they have always fucking treated me this and I will be a fucking stain for someone else. I fucking hate everyone. All my life I've served to please someone else and they treat me like fucking dirt, they bring me to where I need to be and then they call me back. I had totally fucking forgotten about that time I wish I didn't fucking remember because I wouldn't be writing this pathetic fucking drivel. The only thing that fucking matters now is these people that I care about now. Not some fucking prick I have no emotional resolve to be around anymore. You kinda wish that you were there with them still but fuck them. They've hurt you and you've hurt them, the best thing to do now is to just be with those who give you the time of day to be their friend. I think I had to remember or find out sooner or later. It would have fucking ended up with me crying here anyways, it gives me the strength help those I said I would help.