My sleep has progressingly been getting worse. I gave been sleeping how I usually do but I keep having nightmares of fire and explosions. I have become very anxious as of late with no real cause in my life. My daily existence is alright and not threatened but I feel a looming feeling of dread. I have talked to my friends about this and Wally was all like "you should stop eating before going to bed" and it's not eating or anything it just is like that. I have been slacking on drawing and working on RAPU buisness but I don't know... Just writing down might help.
I know I have been slacking on this intralog thing, I meant to do it since I started this website but I got distracted by various things like attempting to get a grant to get equipment but I need more people in the RAPU before I am allowed to even get one! The main thing I wanted to write for this first intralog is my dream, I had a dream I was swimming in a purplish blue ocean with bubbles everywhere. I could feel it on my fur (except for my legs because I was wearing my jeans for some reason) and everything was so bright. I could breathe underwater for some reason so I kept just swimming, it wasn't even messing with my glasses as they just stayed on my face. I saw a figure in the distance so I thought "oh no! that person is going to drown!" despite me not needing to breathe. I went up to them to see a beautiful purpleish blue fox, they wore a collar with an ocean floor pattern on it with a yellow star attached to it that dimly glowed, they had pink pajama pants on with some socks that had words written on them that I couldn't read. Their eyes were shut closed with a pair of thick framed glasses like mine but made out of some weird black material that kinda looked like polymer. I woke him up and two things happened, his eyes opened to show a deep purple iris and he started to struggle in the ocean. He was scared and was kicking in the water and something suddenly happened, two pairs of beautiful wings folded out from the back of his body. I gasped and swam a bit back to give them some distance, this was no entity but another dreamer. He was scared at first but slowly calmed down as he looked at me. I will transcribe what I remember being said below.