i went to the library today and met a fox who looked similar to me but like an actual fox. he seemed to like me despite me almost having another fit of mania. we swapped contact information and I might shoot him a text later but ill see how i feel this evening.
MY HEART IS BEATING OUT OF MY CHERST I CANT SIT STILL ALL I CAN DO IS DANCE. NOBODDY KNOWS WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE IN A WORLD WHERE YOU CANT PARTICIPATE UNTIL THE PARTRY IS OVER AND ITS TOO LATE TO DO ANYTHHING BUT DANCE. AND ALL I WANT TO DO IS DANCE.
IM TIR EDF AND SEWARTY I TPUT MUY BED TOGEHTE RI T WAAS SO HAR DWHY TID DOTHE Y MAKE IT SO HARD WHY CANT THEY MAKAE SHEETS FOR P:EOPLE OLIEK EME WHE TRPYU CANDT PUT SHEETS ON MY BED IO CANT DO THIS ON MY OWN
i went to the library today and almost caused a scene i thought i had myself under control today but i thought about maybe trying my hand at drawing because i saw some art hung up on the wall and i started to run like i do when i feel "like this" but i ended up running straight into a wall and ended up breaking my snout
i went to my therapist today he keeps listening to me rant about how things arent going great with my hyperactivity all the medicine theyve tried on me doesnt work for some reason (GIVE ME A REASON OTHER THAN THE FACT IM A MISTAKE OF GODS WILL) so it just sucks that i just exist like this. we have tried things before to make me not so hyper like the pacifier which makes me self concious and uncomfortable about myself but he suggests i should try getting a plush cat to pet or something like that to take my mind away and not make so much noise. i think i will try that but probablt when i get my money this month, I dont know if inanimate animates like me can bring others to life but maybe i'd have a pet cat evnetually? idk
I HATE MY NEIGHBORS I HATE THEM THEY KEEEP CALLING THE COPS ON ME FOR """NOISE"""" VOILATIONS""""" GIVE ME A BREAK MOST OF MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN DRAGGED PLACE TO PLACE IT IS A FREEING AND TERRIFYING EXPERIENCE TO HAVE CONTROL OVER MY OWN LIFE LET ME DO WHAT I WANT
